YAY took me long enough!!! Finally under 200!!

So since Jan 13th I have come down another 12 lbs…not officially weighing in until sunday… my little mini goal is to turn 30 under 200…thats march sixth.. i know i will have to push push push in feb since i usually can lose 10 to 12 a month, this one month i am gonna do it biggest loser style and go for 16 or 17 so that i hit it in time…what a great bday gift that will be….

…..i see a proposal coming soon (nerves) hopefully not til i get under 200 i wanna be hot in the engagement pics….lol

I worked out HARD today, an hour on the elliptical..feels great, cut some of my stress…I am just so stressed about past mistakes, I am making progess in this area but when I look back and think of some things I did that are done and can’t be undone or completely forgotton, I get such angry, frustrating feelings…it doesn’t make me eat, it actually motivates me more in the weight loss department, but I just hate having that as part of my life…..

Otherwise good week, not gonna weigh in til Monday, tomorrow is my daughters bday party so I will probably have a piece of cake, but I planned it so there will be just enough junk food for the kids and not any left over to sit here and taunt me..

Enjoy the weekend everyone, I will post my new weight on Monday!

I know the people reading this are good people who are in similar situations, so I am going to be very uncensored and tell more of my recent story. I want to do this whole heartedly.

When I had hit the -100 mark, I think I had some kind of mental lapse. I was still overweight (215) ..and In a 2 year relationship with someone that I adored and treated me well. Suddenly I started smoking cigarettes again! (after 8 years quit!) this lead to bad friendships, less exercise, all sorts of negativity, and cheating on my boyfriend, who left me.

That happened in October 2008. In the next year, I did more stupid crazy things. I got back up to 229 (15lb gain, not too bad considering, but still unacceptable.)

Now here I am again, January 2010. I am dating my same bf again, he is working so hard to forgive me, I have been working so hard to forgive myself. I am just now starting to get back on weight loss track and quitting smoking.  I get very emotional when I think about it, so this time I really need to maintain focus, support, and trust me on this one…AS YOU MAKE YOUR BODY HEALTHIER, DO NOT FORGET YOUR MIND AND SPIRIT! 

If we are obsese, we are addicts. To food, to unhealthy lifestyles, to immediate gratification. We need to realize this and get help when we need it, and STOP AND THINK BEFORE WE MAKE STUPID DECISIONS.

I feel bad for what I did wrong, but don’t judge me, I have judged myself and found myself REDEEMABLE. Guilt is a MFer, and you have to let it to if you want to move FORWARD.

I appreciate everyone here, and I know how hard this journey really is.

If you want to see more of my full progress pics, check them out at www.miviaje.webs.com

SOOOOoooooo long story short. In january 08 i weighed 315. I got down to 220, 215 in summer of 2008 and then got stuck. Not just stuck, I made some huge mistakes in my personal life.

Let me say now that people losing huge amounts of weight could use support with counseling. It changes everything. I really acted out, lost a great relationship for a year (now working to rebuild that, thank GOD)….

Well now, January 2010, I am back up to 229 and ready to kick this in the butt and do it to it!! I know I can, here I go…get ready for the show!!

My loss slowed down a lot and I hit a 215 plateau for awhile… But I am kicking off the new year back on track, … i was 310 this time last year!! So i definately look to hit my goal this year, hopefully by summertime!!

I haven’t been blogging lately, mostly due to being pressed for time. I have the kids in school, work, workOUTs, etc….

So here I am at 234… On track exactly with the goals I have set. Sure there have been weeks where I only lost one pound, but then there were a few that I lost 4….then my vacation week, the only week that I gained…and I lost it right back, so all is well. I am down to only 110 left to lose. ONLY 110?you may ask…but when I started, I had 185 to lose. so yeah, I am doing very well.

The most interesting part has been learning to exercise and push myself. I used to only be able to stand like, 5 minutes on the elliptical. Now, if I get on it is for an hour.

I can cross my legs again, I can sit tailor-style, I can use the small restroom stall instead of only the big one, I can get into a size 14 (although I am more or less a 16)…I am almost to the half-way point of my weight loss, and time has flown.

If any of you reading this are just starting out, please believe me it can be done. If I can do it, anyone can.  I have no special powers… All I have is the desire to do it and the motivation to see past the hurdles.

I feel in some ways my weight loss has slowed down, but it is still consistant, at least a pound a week, most often two… I have been working out alot so much that I HATE to miss a day, and I have stayed within my WW points every week also. I have come to realize weight loss is just a state of mind, once you decide to do it and stick on the program, the weight can’t help but to come off.

I hate that i havent been online as much but I hope all my friends here are happy and healthy and doing well!!

I hit 275 today. I have now lost 35lbs since mid-January, averaging about 10lbs a month. I am so happy!! I love seeing the results.  For example, I was waiting to get back in this one pair of jeans. Yesterday I thought they would finally fit, and I tried them on…and they were actually a little loose!

I have gone from a 24 or 26 waist to a 22 (in some pants, a 20). I have gone from a 3x top to a 2x(sometimes 1x). I have gone from being out of breath after climbing stairs to walking 2.5 miles daily with no problem. 

If I continue losing at a rate of 10lbs per month, I should weigh 270 by may first,

5/1/08=goal 270

6/1/08=goal 260

7/1/08=goal 250

8/1/08=goal 240

9/1/08=goal 230

10/1/08=goal 220

11/1/08=goal 210

12/1/08=goal 200

1/1/09=goal 190

2/1/09=goal 180

3/1/09=goal 170

4/1/09=goal 160

5/1/09=goal 150

6/1/09=goal 140

7/1/09=goal 130

8/1/09=goal 120

last night i was carrying a handful of  HEAVY clothes on hangers into the closet, and i passed my my scale.  I thought, “hmmmm I wonder what I weigh with all these heavy clothes on my hands….” so i stepped on, and know what I weighed while carrying the clothes? 295. My start weight was 310. Now I am at 280.4. In other words, all those heavy clothes weren’t even as heavy as all the weight I have lost!  That really made me smile. Now for the next 30 to lose!